C.J. Martin
from Legal Odes, Sets

                 “The snake changes its skin / out of honesty.”—Robin Blaser

 

A little note to the one who in life was known as—

 

Everybody gets elliptical & us—Hello!—all salutary

under lax or activist statutes,

 

in the little boat, we read, moves always

towards the perviness & necessity of hope.

 

Do you reread it regularly? (out past castles)

 

What kind of a pervert will you be, exactly? (Hard to know

what to do sometimes with family.) Here goes

 

the refusal that gets outside negation

& affirmation, too—how like

 

a kind of disturbance décor an epigraph is.

The searing clarity & the searing illegibility of a disturbance.

 

That it wouldn’t look like relation, love even,

but the always redoubled certainty

 

that you could learn something

by circling back—but never quite coming—around.

 

It begins with an epigraph, you say, but you really mean

you’re stuck, so you’re just getting up

 

& walking away—a change of skin…

                                                                        My friend who prints dead animals

 

he collects in a gun safe, my brother’s

snake shooter he wears to Thanksgiving dinner,

 

& the scholar so illegible to the coherent room:

 

                What enlivens matter inheres

                to it but isn’t inherent to it.

 

In a hug situation, it's a danger, brother.

 

Another turn “away from what it was

had moved us” perves (alive in that turn).

 

The real trouble is our being related to converts,

& at the butt hut it’s just curse words & baby talk—

 

Hey I’m listening, finally,

is all I was saying. You just mean

 

propositions are where the law gets a poetics

—or religion? I like the one reclassified

 

smaller thefts as shoplifting…

                                                           Basement quote check

 

for a case on water rights,

telephone mic checks at night w/

 

a friend over the “vertical American thing”

& one or both mics drop I

 

still think that guy has no sense but aural.

Elemental fights about owning shit.

 

                Don’t try & make me dizzy & think you’re right

                cuz you're just saying it all the time.

 

Stirred by “defenses illegible to the law,”

cowed by others. Brother’s glad he didn’t interrupt,

 

so didn’t have to shoot, whoever drove off w/his truck

while it idled in the driveway. We took a twisted filbert

 

left w/some purloined plants &

abandoned w/the said truck.

 

Makes me think of Lance again,

who (post-vengeance) suicides by cop & my family

 

thinks it’s heroic. Situation doesn’t get unfucked.

I was glad to know Rob, but it was never easy,

 

who imagined a show about this sort of thing

called “Cop Out.” John B. Smith speaks

 

to a crowd of selfies & Lance

extends the castle doctrine into the world,

 

while Bernadette makes grilled-cheese sandwiches.

Formal pleasures, edible problems.

 

Hair getting long, shave beard, leave

mustache, send out for acid westernwear.

 

Eat affirmation. (Someone else’s mom, etc.)

Digital grief around Kyger’s passing:

 

just b/c we can do some things

doesn’t mean we should…

 

So in this play, we’re the gentry.

The wind’s playing the house.

 

Sign the papers, they hand you headnotes

from the Marshall Trilogy.

 

Best not to get blameless, I guess.

 

Everybody needs

a job, the poet tells me, defensive

 

& I don’t

but naively

 

disagree.

But fuck poets anyway.

 

Two poets walk into a bar

& nothing remarkable.

 

/

 

2d set: our talk, us failing

around my faithlessness.

 

The tiresome education

of case law & poets

 

(its own tired children)

just can’t wait

 

to get born legible.

 

But here, thus far, even action,

free-range animals—or later that night—

 

ibis, coming home. Week-

endings, stepping into his love

 

letter, missing its sentiment: re

the Petroleum Museum, great folks

 

around Chinatown.

That guy out back on a hillside,

 

playing fetch w/sweet Tulip. Or us in days

at the office (even in this heat) bundled up

 

for no remarkable change

in precedent, eyes trained on facts

 

sufficient to state a cause & can’t see

the law’s sentimental like you:

 

the scholar of the blindspot,

 

missing even the sideview. (So Ezzie & Clover:

Why does nature hide from us, right?)

 

Uncertain occupations, notes on

some broken-hearted group.

 

Whole schools gone into the woods

& nobody comes out famous

 

or gets a loan from no bank.

Conversion, or personal relation.

 

In the vaulted love outside, which is

completely striated, hiding up

 

in a rafters but not living there.

Short dive off a friend’s long pier

 

(Napa Valley meth confession).

& that myth connection:

 

always loved how you pronounce

“the real” as “the rill”

 

& I doubt I ever really get over it.

 

Here we all go reborn

on Gamal’s sleeveless Thriller T-shirt

 

(best class picture ever).

Grows up rill cool & lands here anyways.

 

So to paraphrase:

 

With / in / strict / form

there’s problems.

 

Jimmy hearts it but doesn’t heart fireworks.

Bob insisted we should be able

 

to learn something—but boozy or not,

we loved that poem.

 

Primordial oohs and ahhs

in Ted’s honor (off being his own police).

 

Sit around try & hollow out

the sentence, thus to holler out

 

sorry we missed you.

 

w/a linden you might can make salad,

but these weeds you can’t make shit.

 

Call it a walkout but don't leave,

just get more spongy.

 

Violent times, ingesting deaths—

a fucking church how it tracks

 

or doesn’t, or some other time you touch on:

lunches, from the bench,

 

from the accessible crawlspace.

House built of cinder

 

blocks, safety scissors

(for warts), disappearing acts.

 

Lunch out over the easement.

(Serves us right.)

Vehicular Ode

Really, Charles?—You call that an arabesque?

Go ahead and JUMP, like we’ll miss you.

 

Not like that other one (missed) who

ripped me off as kids when we swapped tapes

 

& he took my Tone Loc, whose recently

deceased sister Chella—crushed by advancing

 

vacuum cleaners when her sales van crashed

— ’s missed. Last I know of other Charles

 

he's a repo man in Odessa. Junk-making &

Pessoa’s quiet heteronymn: redeemable moves

 

he’s not really sure about, what ‘talking’ (can’t talk),

& wraps it up anyways, who never deserved nothing

 

& still begged off, ran off at the mouth,

pulled on up & waited, then maybe even honked,

 

then just stayed there... Or so sat Leonard, hitting some bells.

Another norm for the heap & 2000 years

 

of upright fear, fearfully tallied.

O BEGAT! You asking was she (legally)

 

killed by a joke? (YES.) Anybody’s potsherd,

right Gerry? Isn’t brokenness romantic

 

(legally speaking)? Only way to make commitments

—all excision, proof text (so true!):

 

canons b/w sides, for punishment really.

In the car w/Leslie’s were FIGURES (LOW ending)—

 

sort of oblique land myths—not movable

or immovable either one. O, O, E. K.:

 

poets ARE dirty. All those unkinged bodies

like bods holding a specter.

 

The idea of that figure in motion out

from the dugout accuses the dugout

 

& other Charles goes all Chella, says it’s motion, too,

& prolly sales.

 

                              Thus exits the engineering student,

 

& no one else w/him,

mown down crossing the street. Death,

 

don’t follow me. (I know you know

I think of you often.) Flashes of, crisis of

 

memory & my own nursed panic: it’ll be the end of

—no need to remind me—me. Too.

 

So speed’s another way. Also accident.

Or going all in on purpose, like Jeremy seems,

 

that year in oncoming traffic, to’ve had to do.

Who missed a lot of church

 

& then didn’t, stuck on the problem

of putting to study from people

 

who don’t KNOW shit, who MEAN to.

& seeing him years later,

 

him asking what did I learn.

(Me: Nothing.) The lesson’s BEEN late anyway,

 

amounts to maybe form = ideology & the poem’s

just one mess after another. (Best guess:

 

cleanup’s the same as the collision.) (& always wrecked

by an easy operator.) So (roughly) Coke:

 

“a man’s own act shuts up his mouth

to allege or plead truth.”

 

Stolen truck of that Eddie, other Ed’s

intractable malice (who now, whenever I speak,

 

opens his trap). Or a leap from some porch

renews even estoppel.

 

(So it’s a confidence ode.)

 

Trampled Love Ode (per Lispector)

Not for this house

(the most threatening thing).

 

Protection from odds, contests.

Or, god forbid, interviewing real estate brokers.

 

Lance w/his gun become finally

800 police. & at the hotel bar

 

where we met for b-day drinks:

if this wasn’t love

 

then we drank to water rights? other people’s

perversions? (we couldn’t contain them?)

 

But we laughed at her defense

(broke his dick w/a can of vegetables)

 

Not for some bounded ethics,

doubled over, mumbled into.

 

Mom pours half a Coke over corroded

battery posts, happily drinks

 

the rest, me looking for a place in the car

for the trash & she (w/o missing a beat)

 

takes & tosses it out

as epistemology

 

(This World Is Not My Home)

 

& general indictment of my thing

as too prissy. The point isn’t

 

who she voted for, but how voting left her thus

stranded. Everyone’s unacknowledged

 

legislations, refusals

of the law as such (as Trixie:

 

“I wish I was

a fucking tree”).

 

The inelegant historian, self-styled tragic

lives of starlets & cousin Gwen

 

(some real misogyny down at the local 7-Eleven).

 

Craft, little energies

mumbled under the microphone.

 

The marriage of housing & ideology

was/not news.

 

Marker’s zone pixelated

back through Cocteau,

 

back through Pac-Man (before Cocteau),

through Troy before Pac-Man.

 

Helen “alone, bereft,

and wore no zone, no crown.”

 

They say it’s melodious (we bathe

in apartment buildings

 

or in the small ballroom).

Lanterns on the wall,

 

leave the lifestyle (for its practitioners),

or, failing this humanness,

 

when an adult, or contemplating

children (points, lives—

 

particular morbidness).

This morning’s call from the sonosopher:

 

where I’m from there’s a saying

that you know where you’re born

 

but not where you’ll die

(postmarked Orem, UT).

 

Message grown out from “an egg

of obdurate kind” (not broke

 

but ripped open: the still-speaking

lovely unrelenting move out

 

onto the less regulated easement).

(Ode on How We're Still Doing This, 

on How We're Doing)

Ode for Cesárea Tinajero

                   along beside the river

                   people have things to do

                   and to come right to it

                   from the same source wrong

                                   —John Wieners, “World War I Historical Text”

 

 

The habit.

Or the habit of metaphor.

 

A feeling of peeling it back

to a feeling or the effort

 

in her early books

inflected by habit (what amounts to

 

thinking discovering thought,

describing a feeling).

 

There was this one time

just being there not describing

 

(wasn’t sure that he’d heard it),

me pointing it out as a value

 

of being there, just talking

about what we’d been reading

 

& what we’d learned (anything at all).

That disappearing’s an art, too,

 

or an option (apart from art)

(I tried to explain).

 

Like if that was it

(& it might be)

 

better finally not even to want it,

not do it any more.

 

(Thought, travel

butting up against

 

the wildlife refuge.)

So, different people.

 

To spend time otherwise

(away fr. “A-straighters”

 

I was saying, reburied

by that point) (where it showed up)

 

(mired in that).

 

To find volunteer friends

(or keep making this shit show).

 

(vitalism & grief

in the background)

 

Or buying a car why not,

Michael’s car or anyone’s

 

(or something swimming)

(a wall)

 

(Wieners on friendship)

(or the diner poems).

 

Nobody got nowhere

& it was making me dizzy

 

how I’d draw any line

& the whole thing

 

just grew outward

(all directions at once).

 

So not the house, then (eating itself).

But dwelling? (porous

 

unmythological practice?)

(as if you could say that here)

 

Bad poems/bad parenting,

or happily childless.

 

Not “the grain of the voice”

 

but more like the grain

& the cough

 

& the habit

(& feeling)

 

as remarkable fact.

Dispersal or (I was saying)

 

declination—disappearing act, even.

As “right living.”

 

Him saying it’ll be plain or not

but that’s you choosing:

 

the small repetitions

(the quiet refrain you’d toyed with

 

left in a donation bin).

Even getting all fancy won’t solve it.

 

We might be the sunset commission.

Then they’d need us

 

every day,

if they thought about it.

 

Me: Need’s short shelf-life anyway.

(shitty terms we’d over-accepted)

 

Not art but land

speculation (or this house-painting).

 

You, making up instances

(illustrative),

 

or really drunk, showing your cards.

For ex., the weirdness

 

of the Cuba link

(“actually really personal”).

 

Like we’d skipped ahead in the book

or just skipped out.

 

An interesting life?

Make the bed (even Max saw through),

 

forego the Brit, the undertaker,

& keep on socializing.

 

So the poem’s over?

 

How it should have ended

(10 pgs. earlier).

 

The poet has a big

heart or not (same diff), this first

 

real snow, what we don’t know

in the first pl. about

 

disappearing.

Space we take up in that.